last night, I went to youth group for the last time. this came rather unexpectedly to me - I was always the "going down with the ship" sort of person. but I realized when the last three weeks in a row brought nothing but way too many young life games and nearly no teaching, that I couldn't be driving myself out there for a dying youth group every Thursday night. I think Becca and I are going to start our own little Bible study group or something. I spent most of the drive home trying not to freak out.
I think I felt so awful because 1) I've been very up and down a lot the past week, between turning 17 without wanting to, and some other stuff; and 2) we had to talk to my youth leader about it, and got sent on a guilt trip sort of, and I didn't agree with everything he said....which makes me feel sacreligious because I don't agree with everything my youth pastor says. A "good Christian girl" should.
but I honestly think this is the right thing to do. and Becca's hanging in here with me. I think we'll get through.
but I'm also feeling rather like youth group's fall apart after I join them. it's happened twice now, and its not fun. I'm sure glad I have you guys.
Becca and I went to this Christian group thingy at school today, that Jacob C. invited us to, and who should I see when we get there but Emily!!! that was a really sweet surprise....for both of us ha-ha. I am so stealing your hoodie dear.....
yes. this is my life. babysitting, not sleeping, and feeling like crying for no reason. Don't despair; it'll pass.
(on the flip side I only had half an hour of French because it was a quiz, and 20 minutes of English because my teacher let us go early!)
I saw my friend Spencer and when I gave him a hug I think I scared off this creepy guy who kept stalking me in history last quarter. It was really funny - Spencer is a lifesaver! a really really tall lifesaver....
ok, I'm gonna go do something now. maybe I should run. that sounds good. my mom and I are not having a good day together, if you understand my meaning. of course she's being "unreasonable" and I'm being a "teenager." this is not helping me in my struggle not to cry today.
life sucks sometimes. maybe I'll just eat ice cream and watch Peter Pan. yeah, what a great idea. working out is overrated.
(no it's not, to clarify, I just wanted to say that for sarcastic emphasis)
LOL i was going to take that "working out is overrated" in total seriousness. *sigh*
ReplyDeleteand the way you sound about turning 17, on would think your turning 18. did the state change a few laws or something?
No, it's just that there are so many expectations you have going into 16 and 18. You know, at 16 you can drive and all that junk, and you just kind of feel more mature or something. At 18 you know you'll be an "adult," and you know what goes with that.
ReplyDeletebesides being able to go see R-rated movies (like that's really high on my list), what expectations do people have going into 17? It kind of sneaks up on you.....like a, like a....thing that sneaks up.
yeah. it's late, I'm tired. I'll tell you all about it tomorrow. today was a very long day with an exceptionally fun ending.
=-)
*laughs at Kacy's comment* I have to say that I can't quite understand why seventeen is so terrible, but maybe when it's my turn, this year, I'll understand.
ReplyDeleteHaha, maybe. Though I could see you being just fine Beth - you're a very level-headed teenager. :)
ReplyDeleteI didn't even think about it until Christmas rolled around and I realized how close I was. Trust me, I didn't spend my whole 16th year freaking out about 17!
oh gosh.....
ok, lots of cleaning to do! I don't think I've actually cleaned my room this whole quarter. Like, I've tidied it, but I don't think it's really been cleaned. what are Saturdays for.....
saterdays are for garage sales, spending hours at the local library, and general lazyness. yay!
ReplyDeleteooooooohh. add micro economics on that list.
dang it!
Oh. I guess I missed all that. This Saturday here has been for lots of cleaning, homework, and general productiveness.
ReplyDeleteI love how my mom is on top of the world when she's had a "productive" day, and I'm falling into bed....
:P
ugh. you have to envey workaholics sometimes. even if one loaths them most of the time. *sigh*
ReplyDeleteOh gosh 17. . . don't underestimate that age. Though it is interesting a few years ago going through the same thing and now watching all of you guys going through it. If any of you need a shoulder or just somebody to talk to that completely knows what you are feeling, don't hesitate to let me know. If anything, I want to help anybody. :-)
ReplyDeleteAlso, guard your relationship with your mom. Take it from me, you don't want to damage that special friendship you have with her.
I always end up sounding like an older sister. . . *sigh*
No, it's cool Lucy. I'm so glad there are some people here from pretty much every teenage age group, if that makes sense.
ReplyDeleteMy mom and I are doing quite well...just sometimes things get a little sketchy. but it blows over quickly. Thanks for the advice though - people my age usually listen to young adults a lot more than parent-age people lol.
lol, I'm relatively level-headed, I suppose. Not that I don't have my ups and downs.
ReplyDeleteYeah, I totally agree with you Kacy, it's great to have different age groups on blog. And I'll try not to underestimate the mysteriousness of age seventeen.
; )
And hey, btw everyone, I'm REALLY making an effort to post regularly on my blog. AND for them to be interesting thought provoking posts. I'm going to work on doing it, too, whether or not you come and comment, but I'd say that a few comments would be very welcome and encouraging.
ReplyDeleteI'd love to have all of you guys over there. It's not private or anything, so don't wait for an invite.
YAY!!! I'm so happy!!!!
ReplyDeleteWhat really impresses me is people who post on their blogs even when they have almost no comments. a bunch of my India missionary friends do that - I think it really shows that they are writing for them, to express their own feelings, whether other people are reading or not.
but I will definitely be checking on yours Beth. :)
*big hefty sigh*
ReplyDeleteI really wish people would come around more and post more.