I was just looking through some Village Square archives, kind of missing how intellectual we all used to be.
and thinking about the "good old days" and how much we've all changed, some things better and some worse.
and remembering how I used to look on that blog twice a day because there was always either a new post or a barrage of comments about something though-provoking.
and how much smarter I used to feel because we talked about things...deep things. even if I wasn't that smart.
do you ever feel like having a good cry, for no reason whatsoever? you can't really even think of anything that's wrong, you just want to sit down and cry? sometimes I feel like that. I think that feeling needs a name. but I am rather braindead to try and give it one right now. ideas?
do you ever love someone you really dislike? I know it sounds absurd. if you've read 1984 - think big brother. as in, you really respect someone. you might disagree with everything they say, or hate the way they present themselves, or only be able to think about their flaws. but somehow, you're drawn to them....and you miss something, when they're not around. and you realize that you actually love them, even if you really don't like them.
I know it's insanely weird. am I the only one who feels this way about anyone?
I think...........I'm turning into a really truly teenager. I never used to want to cry for no reason, and life used to be a very simple black and white.
Oh Kacy.
ReplyDeleteI know exactly how you feel about loving someone you don't even like. It causes all kinds of legistical problems. Especially when you also really like someone you don't exactly love... as is the case with me at the moment.
And right now I feel exactly like crying for no reason. It makes me feel better to know that I'm not the only one. :-) *hug*
I think about posting on my blog almost every day, but I don't like to when no one else is posting. Maybe we should try to start a revival, haha. I'm glad you posted.
Emily.
ReplyDeleteI love you. so much.
*bursts into tears* lol. I check your blog every day to see if you've posted, if that makes you feel better. I guess the only difference between then and now is that we're more guarded. we think about posting something and we don't, when a year ago we would've done it without a second thought. maybe.
I'm all for revivals dear. bombardment of posts, here we come!!!
*lots of hugs back* P.S. did you get my message?
i think somehow, we can never go back kasidhe. we have to keep moving forward and maybe we'll have more bloggers come back sometime but it won't be the same. it might be awesome but it won't be awesome in the same way it was. and that's the stupid part of being a teenager. seriously, you can never ever ever do the same thing twice. it will never be the same no matter how hard you try.
ReplyDeletei struggle with really liking people i don't actually love. i can see there's nothing about them for me to love and they're not the type of people i should really hang out with but i still like them, you know?
yes, I know what you mean...I just don't have an answer. :(
ReplyDeleteI guess I have to agree, much as I dislike the idea....nothing will be the same again. like when the hobbits all go back to the Shire, and things are just different. and it's not just in Hobbiton, it's them - they're different.
and it's like Little Women. We'll all grow up someday. or rather, we ARE growing up.
but, even when we're all changing, we can still be really close, like best friends, and turn to each other, even if it's not quite the same relationship, right? I mean, it's not worse per se, or better, but just different.
oh dear. I'm sounding politically correct. and very confusing too.
I wish I had a big brother. . . they seem so nice
ReplyDeleteI know exactly how you feel. Sometimes you need to let it out by crying. Just cry!! "I will not say, do not weep for not all tears of evil" Its true.
Blog is still here. In fact, its actually going pretty good. Best all fall I'd say. :) (just trying to look up)
Believe me, I totally know how you feel. And I keep going back and forth on this blog thing, I do miss it, and sometime I'm like, "fine, I'm going to get this back." But I've tried that before and I know it doesn't work, like Anna was saying, we can't do things over a second time.
ReplyDeleteBut I really do miss it. And blog was a huuuge influence on my life. It's pretty interesting. We've seen a lot of people come and go. I remember, Kacy, when you first joined us on blog, and you were like me, and neither of us were really teenagers, like everyone else, and I at least couldn't really relate to everything. But yeah, that has most definitely changed.
And, btw Katie, blogger isn't doing well, if you had the point of reference, than you'd know, believe me.
Look you guys, all I'm saying is that I want a little bit more liveliness around here! because this is communication method #1 for me with most of you, and I just realized the other day that I'm feeling a little disconnected from some of my friends.
ReplyDeleteI mean, I don't have a ton of friends in different groups. and you guys are my very best friend. so I'm not grieving for how things used to be, I'm just wondering if we could get even a tiny part of it back....maybe just a few more discussions, or more frequent posting. what do you think?
Oh I totally agree! I miss everybody being on blog all the time. I think part of it has been Facebook. I have facebook now, but I like blogger better. I do try to keep up my blog, really. I check everybody else's blogs all the time, even if I don't comment every time.
ReplyDeleteI completely understand how you feel Kacy dear. Being a teenager and growing up is tough. Nobody said it was going to be easy. You know what I learned going through it? Everything is going to be ok. God is in control.
teenager . . . that is a scary thought. I actually haven't realized that when I turn thirteen I will be a teenager.
ReplyDeleteI know blogger isn't doing to well but I am just trying to look up.
(not literaly)
ReplyDeleteHaha I understand Katie. thanks for adding some optimism around here!
ReplyDeleteYeah, today I started really feeling peaceful, somehow, about a lot of stuff that's been going on. and I haven't felt peaceful in a long time. I've been telling myself for months that God's in control and it will be ok - but you know how it is, how hard it is to believe something, when it doesn't feel true? It's like that. it's nice to have it feel true again.
well anyway, I'll be posting as much as possible here in the time to come. Just a heads up, my family's leaving for Christmas on Monday, and I don't know if there will be internet. we're coming back Christmas day, which is Thursday (for those of you who are still a little behind). doesn't it seem crazy that it's less than a week till Christmas??????
I <3 you guys.