is this what it seems/the lure of a dream/and I'm afraid to walk back/through that door/to find that I've awakened

I know I've been posting ridiculously lots lately. I think I'm just getting ready, making up in advance for all the time I'm gonna be gone next month.

we leave on Friday for my aunt's house in Coeur d'Alene, for 4th of July stuff. and family.....bleh. well, some of the family will be good. the aunt I never see, the uncle who's technically not an uncle, and well....my parents. that's about it. :)

but I'll be taking my computer and will probably be on a lot because I have a feeling I'll be bored. we're not planning to do much, except on the night of the 4th of course.

then on Monday I leave for Portland. I'm really hoping my cousin has the baby before I go down. considering I'm supposed to be helping them out around the house because of the baby.......

yeah.

but I will have internet there too. I don't know exactly how much I'll be on, we'll see how it goes.

the next week I'll be working the fair, and won't be on at all probably. loooooong days there. but the good news is that vacation is the next week, and I'll probably be able to sneak to my grandparents' condo a few times for internet. and by a few times I mean probably daily. :D

and after that is Camp Hope!!!!!!!!!

gosh. tomorrow I do laundry and that means that I'll have to start packing the next day. you know how it is, when you start packing, it all becomes real. seriously, I'm only going to be sleeping in my bed for 13 day out of 30 this month. and 6 of those hardly count because it's the week I work the fair so I'll only be home to sleep.

but I'll stop complaining. I should be used to crazy summers by now. and I know I'll enjoy it. just....every time I look at the calendar I get slightly terrified. I guess it's probably because after July I only have two weeks to get ready to go to India. oh dear.....

so my cat is upset because she can't go outside. my parents let her go out (under supervision) a few days ago, so she could lay in the sun and roll in the dirt and eat the grass. and now she sits at the window and mopes. and meows, and is generally really grumpy. like she isn't grumpy enough already.

I'm trying to get ready for worship next weekend. it's going to be really different (our worship leader is out of town so our electric guitarist is leading. we're playing a totally different style of music, which involves lots of organ sounds on the keyboard....). we want to rehearse this week but I don't have a clue when we'll be able to. and the music was supposed to be at the church yesterday but it wasn't till today. so I don't have it yet, but I need to get it somehow by tomorrow. I'm hoping that somehow doesn't involve driving to Enumclaw again....

I'm almost done with my TEFL certification. at least, with the first part. I have two modules left. then a super-duper long grammar module. then lots of little "helpful" modules, like how to teach kids, how to teach big groups, how to teach pronunciation, how to teach with limited resources, etc. those should go by quickly. and gosh I need to finish before I go to India.....

excuse me if I sound like I'm freaking out. you know how it is. it'll go away soon. it's much too nice of a day to freak out. :)

I can't wait for this weekend! my aunt lives a block away from a lake. and it's going to be HOT.

so anyway. I'll see you all soon. pardon this rapid succession of posts. I apologize if your head is now spinning.