i swear to you/i will be there

Hey there. remember me? I bet you don't…..well I'm here whether you do or not.
I'm in love with someone new now. but of course that doesn't surprise you, does it now (mnm)? Jerry Goldsmith is a wonderful composer – I just saw The Twilight Zone (the movie) last week which was soooo 80's, and then we watched Air Force One the same week and I found out it was the same composer, and if you haven't seen that movie yet then you HAVE to see it, because the music is incredible! Okay, so he was a wonderful composer; he died in '04.
I can't believe it's 2008. My birthday is in 11 days!!!! sweet 16….I don't think I'm ready to tell anyone that I'm 16 yet. maybe later I'll feel ready.

I went on a date last night! My second date ever! okay everyone, I know what you're thinking – stop freaking out, I went out with my dad. (the first one was with my dad too, lol) :P We went to the mall and walked around and people-watched over Cinnabon and a Coke, and I got him into both Bath and Body Works and Claire's! I'm gonna post pics later, at his office or somewhere. Of course he got me into the sports whatever-it-is store, and Circuit City where he spent fifteen minutes staring at these speakers (which btw, are really pretty incredible, everything about them is incredible, including the price tag – no that's not a good thing! But there's only two small speakers that plug into your computer via a usb port [yes, that's it!] and they basically give you surround sound, with just two speakers. They were playing clips of Bourne Ultimatum and Fantastic 4 and it sounded so cool!) We got to see the end of NT and some of PotC2 also, which made me very happy. Then I dragged him into FYE where we listened to music for like twenty minutes; he showed me this one 80's song……I don't know what it was but it was perfect for the bus stop…..so I discovered…..got some weird looks but what the heck!
On the way home we put in Wherever We Go by Newsboys and turned the bass (and the volume) waaaaay up – yeah, that's your favorite song Em. And I agree with you 100% Sam, malls should be open way later than they are.

yes, I know, I have the coolest dad ever.



oh yes, and I'm leaving in a week.
can you believe it?
me neither.
tonight at youth group was really awesome. our worship band was….shaky but ok, it's certainly getting better. of course our electric guitarist/vocalist is gone this week so Joe was playing electric guitar, which he never plays, and we only had two vocalists, and ended up cutting two songs and adding two we'd never practiced. so all in all, it was fine. but the message was so touching…it touched several chords. and it is my last youth group before we leave, and I won't see peoples again until the snow retreat right when I get back. My youth leader called everyone over and they prayed for me and mom before we left, and then as I was running out the door….Kelsey and Mollie came over with a surprise! (the best kind of prize is a surprise, right?) They had made this sign with an Indian flag on it that says "We are praying for you Kacy!" and had notes for me to read each day of my trip. And since my birthday is in India, Kelsey had this adorable candy cane box thing with sixteen candy canes inside! (Okay side note: funny story with the candy cane thing. at the harvest festival we did Candyland as the theme, and Anthony was Mr. Mint. he had peppermint extract on like perfume and smelled so good all night……!!!!! anyway, there was of course, the candy cane forest. which had two cardboard candy canes like six feet tall. I rescued them from death for Christmas decorations, but a couple weeks later, before they'd actually gone up anywhere, someone at church wanted to borrow them for a parade in early December. I guess they kind of got…ummm….destroyed?? so then for Christmas Anthony got me this little tiny candy cane that expands and grows when you put it in water. Kelsey and I are planning to make edible ones and start a candy cane farm. I was kind of going crazy over candy canes at our Christmas Party when we played games with them….sort of hoarding them, so now everyone knows I am a coconut geek and a candy cane freak.)

Today was my last Hindi lesson with my friend Chelsea before I leave, which made me really sad. she is such a fast learner and we've really been having lots of fun! I don't know why, but this time around it's harder to leave home. I think a lot of it has to do with my new church and youth group, and of course I didn't really know any of you guys last time either. I had lots of friends, but it wasn't so hard saying goodbyes and stuff. But God is everywhere just like the moon, only he's out at the same time of day. ;)






I miss you guys, and I really do want to be on blogger more. I know I haven't posted in a month. It bugs me every day when I can't even get the time to check my e-mail, much less try to post! Or I have some time but I'm so exhausted that it wouldn't even make sense if I tried to write something. In about five weeks I should have plenty to post about though! Just so you all know:
Next Wednesday we drive down to Portland in the afternoon. We're staying the night with my cousins and then we'll go to the airport to head of for India Thursday morning! I'll be gone three weeks, returning Valentine's Day (please leave me a comment if you want to get e-mail updates while I'm gone….so I'll add you to our list!), and then two days after I get back I'm going on a snow retreat with my youth group – I've already been told several times that I'm insane so you don't have to tell me unless you really want to, ok? I'll get back from that on….ummm…..I think Monday or something. Maybe Tuesday. I really don't know! But I'll be out of it for like a week after I get back from India. I'm going to try really hard to post or e-mail everyone though, because I'm going to miss you guys sooo much while I'm gone! I mean, I miss you right now, but especially when I can't read all your blogs and check my e-mail and stuff. But there is a way you can e-mail me while I'm gone, which I'd really love it if you dropped me a line or two! I'll e-mail all of you telling you how to do it soon.
And guess what else? I'm fully funded!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! And so is my mom!!!!!!!!! and I think everyone else on the team is there too, or really really really really close!




I was in my bathroom getting ready this morning, listening to Les Mis, and I could just see Jesus running after us with his hands waving around yelling "Think you're poor? Think you're free! Follow me! Follow me!" You really love Les Mis more every time you listen to it. It's like PotC3 that way….it gets better instead of worse like a lot of things when repetition sets in.

On Monday mom and I were out all afternoon shopping for India. Mostly at WalMart, ha-ha. *wink* you've gotta love WalMart. After awhile you just learn not to ask the employees anything, because they really don't know. they just don't. (no offense if any of my readers work at WalMart – I speak as I find).
Lifehouse is among my new favorite artists this week. I'll let you know if it lasts!
Oh yes, of course – I'm getting Converse!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! They should come while I'm gone on my trip. I designed them myself! And they say Verya on the back!!!!! I'll try to put a picture up when they come.
On Saturday my grandparents are coming over and we're having a birthday dinner for my and my grandpa, since both of our birthdays happen while I'm gone. We're having fettucini alfredo pasta with shrimp, and for dessert my grandma is bringing the chocolate ganache cake that we have at every birthday pretty much….the kind you have about five bites of and can't eat any more it's so rich, and Tillamook Mudslide ice cream!!!! it's important to taste heaven at such an important event!
I should have been a hobbit.
I made blueberry muffins yesterday morning that needed more sugar than Betty Crocker said they needed, but they turned out all right. I mean, they could be better, but they aren't bad. I guess.
It's amazing how every Thursday is pretty much the same. The morning starts way too early (like every morning though, right?), I freeze to death trying to get breakfast, rush through school, practice piano (which I can also rush through since I'm playing Tarantella!), pop a burrito in the microwave for lunch because are supposed to leave five minutes ago, shove the extra schoolwork in the car, almost forget Hindi books, almost forget worship music…….then finish school in the car, and finally relax when it's time for Hindi with Chelsea. only it isn't relaxing because it stretches your brain so much. but at least it's really fun. but by the time I get to youth group at four I'm almost asleep I'm so exhausted. then it's finding some strong young man who knows the key combination to help me get the keyboard out of the church worship leader's office, try to pretend I'm technically savvy and fail miserably while plugging everything in to the wrong place (I mean, I've done this like ten times and I still haven't got it?!?!?!), and by the time Mollie walks in the door (usually about fifteen minutes late) I've caught my second wind and I'm wide awake with the adrenaline flowing. then the night is amazing and incredible, and usually I couldn't love my youth group more. I come home with thoughts of sleep still several hours off, and actually get to stay up late because Fridays are sleep-in days!!!!

so here I am. where are you?

who are you?
I'm Nobody.