I think I'm on the brink of something large/maybe like the breaking of a dawn/or maybe like a match being lit/or the sinking of a ship

letting go gives a better grip



so this must be the second of my bimonthly posts. I'm sorry I can't post more often - I really would like to but days like these are so rare now...life can be a pain when it's not horrendously fun! or maybe sometimes it's both.

I'm sitting in my grandparents' kitchen at the computer (I know, it's kind of a weird spot but it works ok?) and the whole house smells like turkey and stuffing. I just took a shower so I feel nice and clean. It's half-time in the football game and my grandpa's favorite team is favored to win - and is doing it. life seems pretty good, but then you stop to think that it was never really that bad after all. We're watching Live Free or Die Hard later with all three generations of Die Hard fans (not that I've seen any of the other ones...) and dinner is around three, or whenever our 22 pound turkey is done. let's see...that's just over four pounds each...that should be enough right? well we kind of thought maybe some other people might end up coming ha-ha. ;)

I feel very down-to-earth today. and it feels nice. last night I was extremely hyper, which is fun as always, but after watching the Silver Surfer and coming down from the sugar high and getting very tired, I headed off to my very own room (it's nice being an only grandchild) and snuggled up with both of my cats and fell asleep.

on Sunday I got a lot of new music and chords for 17 songs our youth group worship team is adding to our repertoire of songs. by the way, we came up with a name for our band! well...the yearbook kids were there and needed a name on the spot so Alex and Anthony came up with Called from the Wreckage. I really like it. not that we ever use it but it's nice to think about. and Roger gave me some tiny little earphones that I can have in one ear so I can hear me and the band which is nice.

I like to think about staying here as long as I want without typing up the phone line. being able to draft posts in blogger instead of Word because it doesn't matter if I'm online or not. and that I'll be here all weekend too. :)

tomorrow I might get to hang out with a friend I haven't seen in months. She's the busiest person I've ever met in my life by far (I'm very serious, no hyperbole here), and she lives in Seattle so we don't get together much. we don't even talk much. but she'll be in the Nutcracker tomorrow when we go see it and if I can get ahold of her today we'll hang out some time tomorrow afternoon! I just left a message...I hope she calls me back....

we're having cream puffs tonight. I'm making them. :P with chocolate whipped cream. we're making it in the VitaMix my grandma just bought at Costco. VitaMixes really are amazing. These cream puffs are not scrambled egg cream puffs.

"sempre fi."
"that's the marine corps sir, this is the army."
"oh, right."

"why'd you bring a cop into my command center???"
"it's a basement!"
"it's a command center."

I should get some breakfast. It's kind of funny I haven't even been hungry really until now. I got up at 7:30 for some absurd reason. everyone gets up early here. it's really rather depressing. maybe that is why so many people find Christmas depressing.

okay, I'll probably post again sometime this week. at least I'll be on and commenting often so everyone else needs to post too!