*deep sigh*

this has been a wonderful week. (I mean the last seven+ days, btw, not the last two!) shall I tell you what happened?

I finished Driver's Ed last night!!! what an amazing feeling! of course, I still have two drives, but to have passed my final, to be out of that class forever and to have my life back is incredible! I can go to Bible Study tomorrow night for the first time in months, I can go to youth group every week now, and I can take my written test while all this info is still in my brain at the DOL office so I don't have to take it in January/February.

speaking of January/February......India is constantly on my mind, and I'm like, I'm gonna go crazy if the next three months are like this! this is partially good, and partially bad. I am soooo impatient, but I am soooo on fire for my calling that I really think this is good for me. It's even forcing me to evaluate my life, current and future, and see what are my plans and how I should be living now to fulfill them.

like, I'm seriously considering dropping 4-H. I just don't enjoy it as much as I used to, my cat certainly doesn't :P and I'm thinking that it might be time to move on to things that will help prepare me for my future life goals. My prime is past in 4-H, and I feel too involved. I don't enjoy trying to keep everyone else on track (which is what I feel like I'm doing), and at home I don't have time to study or make it fun like I used to, with fantastic cage decorations and stuff. It's just...it would be so weird. not being in 4-H. I don't know what to do.

I want a job. I really really really want a job! I want to start teaching piano, I want an income, I want I want I want...

oh my that sounds horrendously selfish. let's try again.

I want to be useful for one thing. a lot of my goals take money to reach, and not having any income at all can be frustrating. I love to give, and to help others, and so often money is the most convenient way to do that. but I know I should be using the resources I have now to give away, instead of just complaining. It's just difficult to be able to start teaching, but have to wait until I move so I can have students in my area. but again, God is teaching me patience.


I really got back into my Bible reading and prayer time this week, which had been touch and go for a little while. I feel like I have real passion again! it's not just a chore to get done that I'm not getting anything out of. every time I open up that Book, I learn something new, and every time I talk with the Father, I feel refreshed. not to say that it hasn't been hard this week, because now that God has my attention, He's decided to stretch me farther than before. and growing pains can hurt sometimes. most of the time, ha-ha.

Did you know that if you read four chapters a day in the Bible you will finish it in a year? my favorite book is four chapters, and i could easily read that in a day! sometimes I do just sit down and read it in the morning, for encouragement. only four chapters a day...



I keep looking a mission organizations, colleges, etc....just can't stop. I wish every day that it was September when training will start (if I'm going this year), but I know September will come to soon. There is so much I want to get accomplished between now and then, but I still don't want to wait!


I got a letter from a pen-pal of mine today who wants to be a missionary to India as an adult also. She just got back from a mission trip to Mexico, and this was a follow-up letter, but at was really amazing to hear from her again!



anyway, it really has been a very good week, and I thought I should post and let you all know what's going on!