September 30, 2008

I ain't got a dime, but what I've got is mine/I ain't rich, but Lord I'm free/amarillo by morning, amarillo where I'll be

yesterday this kid was sitting picking his guitar in the courtyard area at school during my free hour, and then he started singing amarillo by morning, by george strait. and wow, he had an amazing voice. it was just really soothing - he had great dynamics, and it was a quiet, simple song. between the song and the guitar and his voice the whole 3 1/2 minutes was just peace.





I haven't seen many people I know at school since the beginning of last week. today from music theory to math I was walking along, looking at every face going the other direction, hoping to find one I knew. then who should I run into (once again, just when I'm looking for someone I know) but Jacob C. in a white sox hat. so we talked for a few minutes and then had to go to our classes.
so I walk along feeling rather happy that I saw a friend (esp right before math, blech), and then my hear a "HEY!" that seems to be directed at me. so I turn around and my friend Joe from youth group is standing there with the big grin characteristic of both him and his brother. so we talked a for a few more minutes.

but I still wasn't late to class. actually today our teacher was late. and I'm not failing math, so far as I know, though all we've had so far is one homework assignment from last week. I'm doing well in music...though that class is easy enough. and I did very well on my first history test, and on the homework. so today, life is good.

then my dad picked me up and gave me a ride home, and left some fried rice he had made at home for my lunch. which was good because I was starving and not looking forward to trying to find food when I got home.

and to make everything absolutely wonderful, all I have today is team photos for golf - no practice. YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! this is a very good thing. especially considering how hot it was yesterday and is "supposed" to get today. I like how people always say it's "supposed" to be nice or "supposed" to rain, as if it's the weather's fault if it doesn't do what the weathermen said it would.

so.....I still have homework though. how are all you guys doing? haven't heard from you in awhile...

September 25, 2008

today was actually close to perfect...the closest anything's been in a while

wow. that's about all I can say. today was great. and I have that I'm-exhausted-but-still-feel-really-good feeling, like you get when it's been a long but super-productive day.

school went well. I did my music homework in class while the teacher was explaining to the other half of the class how to work the keyboards and computers. never mind being less than technically savvy when it comes to setting a password on a computer that doesn't really like you....I don't actually need to have it figured out till next Tuesday I guess. we got to clap and I learned some stuff about time signatures that I honestly didn't know before. so then I finished my worksheet and sat there helping everyone else figure out theirs.
"I can't read this bass clef stuff. I'm strictly treble clef."
"what instrument do you play?"
"trombone."

ha-ha. piano players just have the upper hand when it comes to theory, I have to say. and yesterday I met this girl named Ira from the Phillipines who seems pretty sweet.

We go our math tests back from yesterday and I got 100 on mine!!! *jumps up and down* we'll see how I do on the homework though. luckily I have all weekend to do it, but it's all on graphing and using calculators with over 200 crazy buttons, and both of those are weak points for me. however, I made a new friend (hey, if you can't find your friends on campus, make new ones)! her name is Ulyana (the pronounciation is sweet) and she's from the Ukraine - has the coolest accent ever. she totally reminds me of our German exchange student from four years ago. we sat by each other and she showed me how to use my graphing calculator. she's going for Registered Nurse - really nice. I think we'll be friends.

history went fine, though I can't wait for this week to be over so we can get into actually history, and out of evolution. but I talked to my professor for awhile after class; I found out she's a Christian who believes in evolution....we talked for like 10 minutes about that sort of thing. but it was cool, because it was a really good discussion, not an argument. she respects my point of view and the fact that I can defend it. and she likes having the diversity in the class. I'm really glad she's a Christian though, even if she's rather confused about some things.....

I walked home and one of my friends from youth group had come over with her brother on her way home from school, so we talked for awhile before I had to leave for golf.

*boring details...filler.....golf stuff*

my coach bought us all sodas since we got there super-early and had nothing to do for awhile. we all hit the range and the putting greens.....felt really good today. the course was easy too, and their team only had three girls, so we knew we were pretty much guaranteed a win.
I shot a 52, fairly good for me, with 11 points. I almost scored a point on every hole - I just missed it on the last hole by one stroke. my big goal is to break 50, and soon too. we talked about districts and I found out that if I make it past the first round of districts, the second is played at Chambers Bay - amazing course my dad goes crazy over. this is both really scary and slightly exciting. picture a 100-acre sand pit with some grass sprinkled in over humongous hills. and an amazing view of the sound. this is chambers bay. my big dream is to go there with a super-nice camera like my grandpa's. it's built on the old gravel mines and there are still some ruinous remains from the structures they had there. the train goes by too, right on the water.
if I can consistently shoot a 49-51, I'll make it to the second round.
right now I'm about 51-54. but with serious practice and taking each game very seriously, I think I can get there within the next three weeks.

yikes though. I'm freaked out.

anyway, our team won the match today, and we beat the goal of 66 points set by our coach. we actually scored 76 total, which is the best this team has ever had (in the last four years of its existence). so on the way home Walker took us all to Starbucks as a reward/celebration. I sincerely hope I can keep this up, and even get a little bit better. the course we'll play for the first round of districts is a harder course than we're used to, so I may not score quite as well.





*sigh* and I have to miss one, maybe two full days of school. this is not good news. it means if there's assignments I miss, those grades will be dropped but I'll have to do really well and not miss at all the rest of the quarter. so how do I balance getting really serious with golf for the next month or so, and keeping up with school too? they both take time and lots of effort, and can't be skipped until golf is over and done.
and what if I make it to State? that's not until next spring, so I'd have to keep up my game all winter, and take more lessons.

life is a circus act, and I'm the juggling clown.




but nevertheless, today was good. and I'm holding onto that, because I need it right now.

September 24, 2008

sleeping is overrated

so. I know I said I would post on Monday, after my first day of school. but I was literally gone all day on monday, from school to piano, golf, then my LAST 4-H banquet/event EVER!!!!!!!!!!!! *jumps for joy* which was very fun, especially considering I made kitty litter cake specially for it.
and then yesterday I was up till 10:00 doing crazy history homework - trying to figure out where the evolution people are coming from 'cause none of it makes sense.

so here I am now, done with school, chores, homework, piano lesson, everything. I think I can really post now.

I feel so old. I honestly feel like I've grown up in the past three days more than in the last year. and it's been a big year for me - going to India again, turning 16, getting my license and driving myself everywhere, moving to a big city, all the "growing up stuff" involved with being this age. but now...there's something about walking to college, all by myself, going to really for-real college, learning these big ideas from these certified professors who are all so different, being on a big campus in a bigger world with such old, old people (you know, 17-70, I'm the youngest either way you slice it), that makes me mold into an older person than I am. I have to be mature. I have to understand big words and use them, too. I have to keep up and not believe myself an exception to the rules. I have to find my own way to classes without getting lost. and I have to learn how school people really act and why it's awkward to sit next to certain people or to talk to other people....and it all depends somehow on what class you're in and who the teacher is....and what you can or can't get away with, and what people expect of you.....

and somehow, in all of this, how to meet all these expectations at once without killing yourself.



after my first three days, though I have to say I love school, I still prefer homeschooling as a teaching style. it works best for me. my family situation is such that it doesn't put a strain on me when I'm at home all the time. my own home and my mom are my "security blankets." leaving them, even to walk 15 minutes away, is like a totally new world - with just enough similarity to confuse me. sometimes I get behind in class and wish the teacher could go at just my rate, like I've been doing at home for the last seven years.

but at the same time, continuing homeschooling rather than running start would probably be more crippling than helpful, for me at this point of my life. I'm so anti-change, so nervous of new things, that when I'm ready for new things I'm usually too afraid to try them. unless somebody makes me, I often miss out on them. and I'm ready for this big new step into a big new world. I need to grow at my own rate as well as learn at my own rate, and sometimes that means moving away from homeschooling and into college, I think.




Monday morning was a rush to get ready and make sure I had everything in time to get to school and find my first class. never mind that my mom and I had walked there twice before - I can get lost just about anywhere, anytime. thankfully, my mom drove me so I didn't have to walk in the freezing morning air on my first day - and it gave me a few more minutes of oh-so-valued sleep. she dropped me off and I chose a path, apparently the right path, that dumped me out right in front of the building I wanted, and I made my way to the class with no difficulty. getting through the door and into that room full of BIG people was a little tougher, and I'm sure I looked like an idiot just standing there making up my mind to do it, but I finally did and slipped into a tiny little seat in the back.
I'm pretty sure I'm the youngest and shortest person in my music theory class. but that doesn't really matter. I'm one of the more advanced, having had six years of piano and being pretty well-versed in theory through all of them. I have a head start on the rest of the class, so it's mostly a sit back, relax, and brainlessly do the assigned stuff sort of class.
oh, and the professor is AMAZING!!!!!! he's funny, lighthearted, and personal, but challenging too, and amazing at teaching. he goes off on rabbit trails and then asks us where he left off. he engages all of us in conversation with him and with each other. it's not so uncomfortable as my other classes. you almost forget how early you got up and how cold it is, and revel in the world of double sharps and whole steps and Beethoven and moveable clefs.


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I'm afraid it's gotten very very late so I'll have to cut this short and hopefully finish it tomorrow, after my match. sorry everybody.

September 22, 2008

"first day of school!! first day of school!!!! come on dad, wake up!!!!"

"five more minutes....."



*big heavy sigh*
big heavy backpack

it's off to the wilds of east Asia for me, my friends. if you never hear from me again, you can all fight over my round bed.

September 20, 2008

who scorn his word, beware to those/the angel sees, the angel knows/this hour shall see your darkest fears/the angel sees, the angel hears

anna, you were right.

lauren, you were right.

phantom was amazing. there's no other word to describe it. that's probably why you both picked the same word.

amazing.

September 19, 2008

*winnie the pooh voice* It's AUTUMN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

*opens window and gets hit in the face with several leaves, which have changed colors overnight from summer to autumn*

Happy Windsday everyone. autumn is officially here.

and I just realized yesterday that school starts in just a few more short days. good thing I found a backpack that will hold all my books. which, by the way, must weigh at least 20 pounds.

I love Ross!!!!!!!
and I love paychecks too. since my mom has stopped buying me all the cute clothes I think necessary, I can now buy them myself.
I have another student starting at the end of October. she seems pretty sweet and her mom is really nice. she also seems excited for lessons. she's my current student's best friend, which is how she found out about me teaching.
and she has the same polka-dot shoes as me.
(which really is irrelevent)

so......I'm fairly sleep deprived due to waking up at 3:20 and not going back to sleep till 5:00. then we ran errands all day which is fatigueing too. I almost fell asleep several times in IKEA and other places....

we picked up our cuckoo clock from the clock shop where it was being repaired and got into a big argument with the Russian clock-fixer......not pretty at all. I never saw such rude insulting and horrible customer service before. if you're getting a cuckoo clock fixed soon, don't go there.

we also went to World Market, which always makes me wish I was rich. there is so much amazing stuff there I really really want to have, but for example: one pair of Indian earrings is $10.00. and it's not like they're real silver or gold or anything like that. their bangles are super-expensive too.
but they have really cool stuff. and I wish I had enough money to buy half of it. :P




I am now going to find something sweet and fattening to consume while I finish watching Conspiracy Theory like a couch potato.


P.S.
I think I'm getting that summer's-over-and-school's-here-and-the-weather-is-turning-bad cold. which is actually kind of exciting because I'm so excited for blustery days and long sleeves and scarves and tea and blankets and books and.......

September 18, 2008

I can't believe tomorrow's thursday. I mean....already??

so last night I made this big long post about golf and stuff, actually more about my coach than golf really (so it wasn't that boring), and the Blogger tells me they had some weird problem like someone else was posting at the same time, or something similar (it doesn't really matter), and they said go back a page and try again.

which basically means, blogger sucks, we deleted your post and you're screwed. NOW try again.

so I shut down my computer and went to bed.





but I didn't come on here to tell you that. it's just preamble. like the Constitution. yeah that's right, my real post is the length of the Constitution. aren't you excited??
okay, never mind. these attempts at humor are getting to be too much strain.

suffice it to say that I had my first piano lesson with my neighbor today, and it went extremely well. also, she refered a friend to me so now I will have two students! and I got a check from her and from the fair stuff I entered. so I'm no longer "officially" broke.
although I am broke in practice, if not in theory. it's all in the bank and I don't think I'll get to take much out with my mom's approval until next month or so.

we'll see.



oh yes and we walked to the college again today to get my music theory book, which is as big as my algebra book (serious, it weighs a ton!) and just about as expensive. and I already know the stuff at the beginning.
except that I had to teach myself how to read alto and tenor cleff. I realized that this is music theory, not piano theory.



after my lesson I got a nice over-sized bowl of ice cream and guiltily watched the first half of Conspiracy Theory. amazing movie! it's so incredibly dumb that it's awesome. and Mel Gibson and Julia Roberts saved it.

"he said a dog bit his nose."
"arff."

September 14, 2008

everyone would have a dozen bluebirds

I am now rejoining the land of the employed. I have my first piano student!!!!

*bounces up and down*

my neighbor is super-duper excited to take lessons from me. and she's already past the primer version so she knows a little bit of theory and stuff - same curriculum I want to use for teaching. she has a keyboard and practices every morning before school.

so I am starting a job I love with an excited student (thank God for this one, He is amazing), and on top of that I will have an income again!!!!

and she's going to try and convince a friend to take lessons too.

I love my life. :D

September 9, 2008

it's official.

I'm hopeless at electric cooking. those of you who have gas ranges know what I'm talking about.

for those of you who know the well-kept secret of what number to cook eggs, boil water, etc. at, please enlighten the rest of us!

"I'm hopelessly flawed."

and now it's time for golf. see y'all!

September 2, 2008

you kick up the leaves and the magic is lost...

I can't decide if today was a good day or a bad day.

it had amazing moments and moments where I really wanted to cry.

I slept in till 10:30 which was a really good moment.
then I cleaned the kitchen from last night's soup/zucchini bread expedition - so-so.
we went to the fair to enter my photos and stuff, which was fine. my Mom expects me to remember the way to Puyallup so I can get to my piano lessons.....which could be very interesting. :P
on the way home we stopped at the college bookstore so I could pick up my history and algebra books which we'd pre-ordered, and they came in this sweet bag with the college logo on it. the store has GRCC clothing, mugs, blankets, etc. and a whole bunch of other cool stuff that I wish I had money to spend on. I was looking at one of the many philosophy books and desperately hope that I have that one in my class - it looks so amazing! apparently you can rent movies from this place, and they were playing RotK on the big screen TV there which made me both very happy and hyper. *bounces*
we got home and I rushed to grab some lunch before it was time to leave for golf. thank goodness now golf is only from 3-6 instead of all day.
I golfed fairly well - I shot a 56 over nine holes, which was my best score last week too. and I don't expect any of you to know or care what that means, it's just something I need to say. I really do think I'll make varsity....at least I hope I will.

is it bad form to put a letter patch on a bag instead of a letterman jacket?

speaking of good and bad form, I watched Peter Pan yesterday. and Mulan. and also State Fair. no, I wasn't sick, and no I didn't sit in front of the TV all day. they we on while I was making the soup and baking the zucchini bread. and Peter Pan made me happy all over. *self hug*

I've come up with a word for when you don't know how to describe how you're feeling. like when you can't think of a noun so you say 'thing.' my verb form of 'thing' is mimsy. like in Jabberwocky:
"all mimsy were the borogroves, and the mome raths outgrabe."

well....this post is kind of falling apart and I'm really tired. I'm going to go to bed and finish it tomorrow.

g'night all! tomorrow I go to the mall!!!!!

September 1, 2008

ideas?

so I have about 1 cup of extra cream that's not gonna be good for a whole lot longer, but I'm not sure what to use it for.
I'm thinking something rich and dessert-like and exceedingly wicked.
but I don't know what. so I'm open for ideas. one possibility is cream puffs.




and btw Disney movies are bomb. I just finished Mulan and stuck in Peter Pan. I love baking days!